Ah the syncronicities…

A friend from my Soulcraft group sent an email to another of our group Thursday night.  She sent a song she had heard.  The lyrics and the YouTube link are below.  I have had those moments of loneliness, of thinking, “What the hell am I doing?”, “What am I supposed to do next?”, just “What the hell?”.  Daily, I have to be still, center, and reconnect to the calm presence deep inside that knows this is exactly where I need to be.  The song was a message I needed to hear.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0Gv5nGMOGg

 That’s What the Lonely is For
By David Wilcox
The depth of your dreams, the height of your wishes
The length of your vision to see, the hope of your heart
Is much bigger than this
For it’s made out of what might be
Now picture your hope, your heart’s desire –
As a castle that you must keep
In all of its splendor, it’s drafty with lonely
This heart is too hard to heat

Chorus:

When I get lonely ah, that’s only a sign
Some room is empty, and that room is there by design
If I feel hollow – that’s just my proof that there’s more
For me to follow – that’s what the lonely is for

Is it a curse or a blessing this palace of promise
When the empty chill makes you weep
With only the thin fire of romance to warm you
These halls are too tall and deep

Chorus

But, you can seal up the pain, build walls in the hallways
Close off a small room to live in
But those walls will remain, and keep you there always
And you’ll never know why you were given… why you were given the lonely

Some room is empty
If I feel hollow that’s just my proof that there’s more
For me to follow – that’s what the lonely is for

From the deep of your dreams, the height of your wishes
The length of your vision to see, the hope of your heart
Is much bigger than this
For it’s made out of what might be

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The song says it well.  Thanks again Sarah.
I’m here to start over, to find out what my life looks like; to let go of what I’ve known and start with a blank slate.  As I rode my bike around La Posa and then drove around town yesterday, I realized this place offers me the blank slate I need.  It’s a place where I don’t feel like I have to conform to anyone else’s rules.  People here seem to be doing what they want and in the way they want.  It’s living outside the box that our society designs for all of us.  Right now, this definitely feels like home.
My friend left a comment on my “Why am I doing this?” page that includes quotes from the Dalai Lama that say you are home when you feel at home.  Simple yet profound to someone out on the road of the unknown.  Thanks again Pace.